Currently….

With how long my hiatus has been I know Its time for a “currently” post. I feel so embarrassed, cause when was the last time I talked to yall?? I’m gonna have a little transparency moment. It’s honestly so hard to get back into making content when you have been gone for so long. I honestly don’t understand how creators on bigger platforms find the balance to live in the moment but also meticulously look for content ideas. Its hard!

I won’t lie…I’ve been feeling really uninspired lately in actually documenting my life and thoughts and I can’t really pinpoint what it is and unfortunately don’t know what that means for the future of my blog.The longer I have been away the more insecure I find myself in my content. I’ve been going through this period where I jot down ideas but I think they’re too subpar to what I’ve written in the past. Then I lose that spark and passion for that idea and it becomes this vicious cycle of insecurities.

Maybe I should change my mindset and instead of writing with the idea of what yall would like focus more on what I want to share.

I love writing and this blog has been my baby for 4+ years, so I can’t come here and say this absent-ness won’t happen again. But I can truly say I couldn’t stop thinking about coming back and writing to yall. So since it’s been so long, this blog post is a small update on things, thoughts, life, and all.

2022 favorite moments…

Last year I spent a lot of time traveling, exploring new things with friends and of course making memories. I only hope 2023 provides the same level of energy but more.

What I am currently loving

• Been wearing my natural hair out a lot more this year (I know its only March but I’m still gonna pat my self on the back). I forgot how fun actually being intentional on taking care of your hair can be. That eagerness of trying new soothing creams and experimenting w/ new oils is great, but I also forgot how annoying wash days can be as well. Currently trying to venture out of just a high puff and twist out but we’ll see.
• Been loving my sitcoms!! I’m appreciating how different sitcoms elicit different laughs from me. I could be clutching myself with tears rolling down my eyes from a scene from The Office or a small chuckle after hearing a a clever comeback from Seinfeld. Either laughs make me feel good at that moment.
• gymming…who would of thought. I know everyones new year goal is always to be fit and get into the gym. But these last couple of months, I have been so dedicated in working out and really been inserting it into my routine and I couldn’t be prouder. It is no longer a rare activity I do when I’m bored anymore. I actually understand you gym rats. Its really addicting feeling yourself get stronger. I get a little dopamine hit every-time I break a PR or finally nail an RDL without lower back pain. I’m gonna keep chasing this high.

What I am Currently Hating

• The fact that I have to look for a new therapist. My old therapist has a lot on her plate and although I’m happy for her I am sad, that all that hard work I feel like I accomplished has gone to waste. I just hate that beginning period of meeting a new therapist and gauging if our personalities will mesh or not. Having to unravel old wounds again so they understand how to heal the new ones. A part of me feels like maybe I should just relax on therapy for a while but I’m not to sure.
• My emotional stability and overthinking. I know everyone feels this at times, but I hate how your own thoughts and emotions can betray you. Especially when I need it to be strong the most. Maybe this is something you guys can relate to?
• This cold cold weather. Times like this is when I really feel homesick and miss Houston. I see friends back home already having picnics in the park and wearing dresses and skirts. Meanwhile a snow storm just finished and I’m still wearing my purple parka everywhere I go. I am ready for warmth and sun, so please hurry up.

So that was a little bit about my thoughts and things. Please feel free to leave a comment on some things you are currently loving or hating. See you soon 🙂

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